Often in these past few years I feel like I’ve lost at life, like I’m a failure in my work or with my family, not worthy of being blessed with the love of my soulmate, destined for hardship and ruin, left to be alone and forgotten. Divorce, job changes, aging, debt – all are factors that bring about these emotions.

Then days like today happen. Time with one of my beautiful daughters, a good nap, upbeat music, a flavorful meal and a good glass of vino, a Quakes soccer game on TV, a call from an old friend. A restful pace to the day overall. Then the sun breaks right through and the smoke clears (literally), and I feel happy.

Then playfully, my mind wanders with thoughts of dancing with my girl, travel to new places, a warm sunset by the sea. A sense of certainty that my future will be blessed tenfold comes over me.

Relatively speaking, I suffer from first-world problems. Comparisons to my friends and neighbors abound unrealistically. I ought to be more grateful for what I have and who is in my life. I am grateful. I AM blessed, more than I deserve.

When I am at peace, instead of feeling like I’ve bottomed out, I see this chapter of my life as a chrysalis. Despite its trials, my life is rebalancing while I learn some humility and clarify my values. My spirits are lifted in faith, hope and love. As I sit on the tailgate and look at the world, a smile sneaks out and I know that this monarch will fly one day.

Today is a great day. Thank you, Lord.